so many things going on in my mind and i can’t find the right words to express myself
- what’s my purpose in life
- am i supposed to go about life day by day with no real meaning
- what will i be when i grow up
- will i be a spinster (i don’t want a boyfriend/husband from where i’m from ha ha)
- will my future life satisfy me
- will i have kids
- will my kids end up like me - nothing?
- what kind of job will i have
- will i get into uni
- will i move overseas like i’ve always wanted and now more so than ever
- will i ever come to experience love
- will i learn to believe in love
- WILL I CHASE THE ONE I LOVE AWAY (“everything i love has gone away”)
i’m so scared of the future i just wanna stay here i don’t wanna move further i don’t want to have to worry about being jobless/unmarried/loveless/childless. to be very honest i’m incredibly skeptical and cynical of love it seems too good to be true and i don’t think i have the luck to experience the privilege of loving someone who will love me back regardless of my many shortcomings. largely that’s what i’m most afraid of. :’( crying like faaskdnaldsd now
